Friday 10 December 2021

Final Hymnal For The Wild released

 The final Hymnal for The Wild has been released, The Far Off Nearby. Delayed due to illness and various other things, the ebook is now available to download from Proost for free.

The hymnal series tried to wrestle and articulate something about the wildness of the call of God and what it means to live out our faith in the places we are.

Wednesday 18 August 2021

some night thoughts

 some night thoughts about the news

the terrors of Afghanistan

and Haiti

and Covid

and Climate Change

and the sense that while it seems

that nothing changes

there is always hope (for many)

and no hope (for many)

even if right now

that very idea of hope can't be imagined

The original size image is below

Wednesday 28 July 2021

in your light

"in your light we see light" Psalm 36:9b

I'm increasingly aware of my own tendency at times, to not even notice moments of light in the maelstrom of everything else.

this is one of those verses that always catches my heart when I see it. this is a poet's verse and....

...asks us to do something, to be attentive to our surroundings and to look for the light therein.

but more, the verse gives us the lens through which we will be able to see what is to be seen, to catch a glimpse of something beautiful....

...only through this other light do we see the beauty and depth of the the first light.

sometimes when i witness something of beauty i can barely comprehend it, there is too much going on, so much potential, so much connectivity, like everything sparks into life.....

....through this other lens of light that is magnified enriched and the awe and awesomeness of creation burst into life.

"in your light we see light"

Saturday 24 July 2021


Not a huge fan of the word "repent" because of the baggage it carries for so many, but the concept is helpful, to turn away from former ways, to turn towards a different path. Peace to you.



Saturday 3 July 2021

10 years ordained

10 years ordained

This is just a splurge of thoughts (largely unfiltered)

Ten years ago today I was ordained deacon at Chester Cathedral.

It’s a common story, I’m reading lots of similar social media posts in the past few days of similar, “5 years ago”, “ten years ago”, etc, usually accompanied by a smiling picture of people wearing robes and stoles. Congratulations to you all!

I’m also conscious of amazing people being ordained today, one of whom I had great pleasure to work alongside for three years. Congratulations!

I’m also seeing posts from a few remarking on anniversaries of when they didn’t get ordained for whatever reason: peace and prayers for those people. I’m particularly aware of folk who weren’t ordained because the Church of England didn’t follow its own formational rhetoric and play by its own formational rules.

As a pioneer I’m also aware of the discourse in pioneering about lay pioneering and ordained pioneering and that’s a complicated picture made incredibly difficult by diocesan decisions to seek ordained pioneers, not because they are better pioneers buts o they can get more “bang for their buck” by getting ordained pioneers to fulfil the functions of priestly ministry. There’s also sometimes a lack of understanding that some of us ended up being ordained in part because that’s the route that was opened up for us by our vocations advisors, other routes weren’t even offered, eg. OPM

I’m also aware of wonderful people who have stepped away from parish ministry, or indeed ordained ministry, or indeed any form of “ministry” (whatever that means) and have stepped away from those things or are seeking to step away from those things for various reasons. Grace and peace to you all.

At the same time the Church Times is reporting on a new CofE initiative: (limited free-views)

Original strategy document from the CofE here:

With links to an event here: (limited free views)

Now at this stage I don’t have anything to comment about the strategy document or the articles other than things like this are never binary, need nuance and the Church is always after the next silver bullet.

There are a number of different tacks I could take in my reflections on this but that’s for another time.

Meanwhile ten years ago today I was ordained deacon and the day of my deaconing was a delight and joy, the fulfilment of a beautiful vocational journey that had led to that point. There’s not much else to say about all of that except that what followed my deaconing didn’t really fit with what my vocational journey and my training prepared me for.

And as for my priesting, that followed eleven and a half months later, that was a complicated situation, an immensely confusing, painful, ridiculous day (except for the wedding Clare went to during my ordination and to which I went to afterwards!) and once again was followed by a realisation that the ordination itself and what it meant to the institution in terms of function didn’t really fit with what my vocational journey and my training prepared me for.

The journey following both ordinations has been a bit of a headswim too.

All of this to say that when I think of ordination I quite often think of this song by Moby and the Void Pacific Choir.


Wednesday 21 April 2021

meta-modernism - meta-christendom


swings back and forth from modernism to post-modernism

the same can be said for christendom - postchristendom

sometimes we swing back between both, like a royal funeral


Friday 2 April 2021




When the sky turned

From deepest inky black

To daylight once more….


When the hewn remnants

Of that curtain were

Pulled down to be repaired….


When the cross was

Once more empty

The nail holes all that’s left….


When the sponge and spear

Were gathered up

And taken into store….


When the stone was

Rolled into it’s

Final resting place….


When the scattered friends

Gazed at the evening’s

Setting sun….


When the spices were

All sorted and

Whispered plans were shared….


Thursday 25 March 2021


 I've been experimenting with some design lately and wanted to share a few pieces created in the last week:. These are the first fruits of a new project, SRFB.